2:30am. I woke up after a bad dream. I was crying and I can still feel the tears on my cheeks. It’s been years, dad. I miss you.
Where are you? I cannot sleep. You should be here singing me songs and playing with my hair. I know you’re okay. But what about me? I needed you but you weren’t here. You were my first best friend, remember? We used to play hide and seek. I hide and you always find me. Now, you hide but I can’t find you. Did you forget about me? Did you forget about mom? Why did you neglect me? I was just asking for a piece of candy but what you gave was pain.
Looking back at those days you brought darkness in my life. It was the end of the month of September, I still remember. I always wear pink every Sunday but that day, I wore blue. What happened exactly that day was still vivid in my memories. You always tell me that brave girls don’t cry, but I did cry. I was crying and begging for you that night but you still left me.
When I was younger, everything seems so simple. I remember those days that I used to tell you a lot of silly things. I told you that I would go to Mars and be an astronaut. I told you that I would have five dogs. I told you that I would go to university and take a course that has something to do with film. I told you that I would make a film about you and me. I told you that I would get married and have a big house. I still have a lot of things to say but you won’t know because you chose not to be here.
Pain and Anger. I succumbed myself with the idea of you not coming back. I want to take this time to say thank you for the gift of sh*t. I can now say f*ck you in 5 different languages. You’ve been a great father, daddy!
Where are you? I cannot sleep. You should be here singing me songs and playing with my hair. I know you’re okay. But what about me? I needed you but you weren’t here. You were my first best friend, remember? We used to play hide and seek. I hide and you always find me. Now, you hide but I can’t find you. Did you forget about me? Did you forget about mom? Why did you neglect me? I was just asking for a piece of candy but what you gave was pain.
Looking back at those days you brought darkness in my life. It was the end of the month of September, I still remember. I always wear pink every Sunday but that day, I wore blue. What happened exactly that day was still vivid in my memories. You always tell me that brave girls don’t cry, but I did cry. I was crying and begging for you that night but you still left me.
When I was younger, everything seems so simple. I remember those days that I used to tell you a lot of silly things. I told you that I would go to Mars and be an astronaut. I told you that I would have five dogs. I told you that I would go to university and take a course that has something to do with film. I told you that I would make a film about you and me. I told you that I would get married and have a big house. I still have a lot of things to say but you won’t know because you chose not to be here.
Pain and Anger. I succumbed myself with the idea of you not coming back. I want to take this time to say thank you for the gift of sh*t. I can now say f*ck you in 5 different languages. You’ve been a great father, daddy!