I'm not happy with my life.
I always feel unloved.
I did what I can give
but it seems not enough.
I'm gambling
Between Death and Life.
Its easy to pick
but the result will be vicious (like what I'm feeling right now).
Death will be permanent.
Life will be continuous dying.
Tears,
Scream
My heart cries and screams
"I want to be free,
I don't want this burden anymore...
Its making me hard to breathe..."
"What are we going to do?"
I also don't know the right ingredients to live
They say family
but I don't know if I still have.
They say friends
but I don't know if they're real.
They say love,
but I always get the wrong one.
My beloved ship is about to sink.
I tried to fix it
but cure is not enough.
Pain buried inside.
Crimson soaked
And me lying.
Not breathing anymore
Such a beautiful death.